Went to bed at around 11PM and it's now about 4AM. I'm the type of person that needs a lot of sleep in order to function, so work will not be fun later. I'm not quite sure if it's daylights that's messing me up or not. Actually that's not quite true, for some reason, I've been feeling anxious since yesterday.
I hate this feeling because usually for the most part, it's unwarranted. It's crazy, but my brain seems to need me to worry about something at all all times, otherwise things must not be right. After a few days of feeling good, something inevitably comes up and starts messing with my nerves. Most of the time it's something compeltely useless and logically I shouldn't be stressing as much about it.
Current worry, money. I know, I know we all sort of worry about it. Thing is, I really don't have much to worry about. I'm on solid ground financially speaking, I'm not spending more then I can afford. I do have savings and my job is at least secure for the short/mid term. My brain however is yelling at me that something is wrong. I'm forgetting a big expense in my calculations or something and when I do sit down and crunch the numbers, even if it was what I was expecting I still feel disappointed on the outcome. And that's just an example.
And this is just the current worry. This will eventually pass... usually by finding something tha makes me feel like I accomplished something. Even if in reality it doesn't matter...
Ah well at least this time the worry is something "useful" as it'll help me budget out my finances eventually. I just wish I wouldn't be such a worywart in general and that the damn clown will let me sleep!
