Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Drama llama

 Somehow the karma scales are not quite 1 to 1 for me. I don't know, it just seems every time  balance seems to be restored in the force, the drama llama rears his ugly head.

Ok so maybe drama llama isn't exactly the best way to describe my situation. (It's not internet based and I can understand how it originates). Still. Why can't things stay balanced, just for a little bit. I had a great weekend. I was able to sleep all night last night and feel somewhat refreshed for a Monday morning. And then drama llama turns up at night, messing with my sleep again, making my brain work overtime.

I know in the grand scheme of things, it's silly stuff. I have tons to be grateful for, I'm trying to remind myself that. This drama while it does have *some* effect on my life, it's nothing serious and while it would suck if it really got in the way of things. It's also something that I may be able to cut out if need be.

I'm just tired of always getting knocked down a couple of pegs the moment I start feeling content (forget about feeling happy). I know this is all a momentary setback. But really, am I that bad of a person? Did I use up so much good karma in the past?


Next post will be an upbeat one. I promise. Even if the drama gets worse.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Found this online

Kinda sums things up nicely for me right now.

Sleep still craptacular.

Friday, February 10, 2012

Scumbag brain

Ahoy hoy everyone.

I would love to say that this is not another one of my infamous whiny emo posts, but I try not to lie to my friends. So this is another of my infamous whiny emo posts.

Good news, the guilty feelings I;ve been having have lessened. Oh and I got a raise! Woohoo!

Bad news, I've been have trouble sleeping for the past week or so. It either takes me a long time to sleep or I wake up at ungodly hours of the morning. I haven't had a full nights sleep in a while. Even after having a very good day, mfeeling happy, things going well, when it gets close to bedtime, bam! Stupid brain is like, y'know what, you were too happy today, time to think and overanalyze shit so you can't sleep. Hell even when my day isn't taht great, does my brain say, hey it's time for a break! NNNNOOOOOOooooo..... he just says keep on worrying.

Seriously. I think it's time I stab it with a q-tip. Hopefully then he'll shut up.