Showing posts with label erratic. Show all posts
Showing posts with label erratic. Show all posts

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

update on my pain.... and very much TMI (might be nsfw-ish if office is very prudish too)

Hmmmm that sounds liek a good emo title. I may keep that for a future update, maybe a woe is me poem for the future when im drunk and wearing black mascara.

Instead this post is about actual physical pain. So WARNING!!!!! The following post details stuff that most, nay all of you may want to skip. Seriously.... there will be too much information ahead!


Look I even added an image to show how serious I am!
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Wow, still here? That bored at work huh? Ok... well here's my painful story for your amusement...


Welp... as many of you know... I've been having some problems down there. Basically, some days it felt like my boys where being squeezed. Saturday I wanted to see my doc, but the office was closed and they'd only open on Tuesday.

eh no worries, if the pain didn;t get any worse, I could make it until Tuesday. Famous last words....

Staurday went by... not too bad, a little worse, but maybe a good nights sleep would help. Sunday morning, eh not much better. But bearable, until the night came along. I was walking home from my parents. By the time I got home, it felt like someone had a deathgrip on me. I mean lying down in tears, freaking out kind of pain.

I finally gave up, called y parents and they drove me to the ER. Yes, it was so bad, I caved and decided to risk hours of wait and possibly catching other nasty stuff... it was that bad!

Well good news for me though, apperantly testicular pain is something serious, andI got blood sample taken right away as well as put on a higher priority. I was basically in and out in about 3 hours. The doc gave me a prescirption for a different set of antibiotics. As well I had to return the next day to get an ultra sound done and a follow up with an ER doc.

Oh and one last surprise, I had to get an antibiotic shot... in the butt. Yep, the needle going in wasn't bad, but feeling the injection itself and immediately after... let's just say I hobbled out of there.

The next day was uneventful but long. Ultra sound was done quickly and didn;t show anything worriesome. But the ER was PACKED that morning and even though I had a higher priority since I was there for a follow up, I waited like 3 hours before a doc saw me again. So she gave me a number for a urologist to follow up with after im done with this batch of meds.

I just ended day one of the new meds (about to take the second pill) and I have to admit, I;m cautiously optimistic. It's a bit better. I need to fax in the paper the ER doc gave me before being able to setup an appointment with the urologist, so that will be done tomorrow.

And while all of this sucked donkey balls (and felt at times like I got kicked in the balls by a donkey) the absolute worst part is that I missed my sisters graduation. At least I was able to catch the webcast of it and join my family for supper, but it really sucks that I couldn't be there :(

Welp, that's my story of woe. Why am I sharing this? Well I guess the pain isn;t gone... so I am still scared that this might have more complications. Especially since it took like 4 weeks before getting to this point. just need to vent out, clear my head and hopefully let some of the worry go by sharing.

If you have read all the way through this, I am sorry that you went through all of that.

Oh and for those of you curious, the docs suspect I have Epididymitis
And before anyone wonders, no it was not from an STD. My boys have been fondled more times in the past 48 hours then they well almost ever and the last time was well over a year maybe a year and a half ago!

Great, just my luck, I somehow still got an STD without the action!

ugh.... anyway, sorry again for putting you through all of this. Time to pop my pill and hopefully get back to normal!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Post of a sleep deprived mind or why I think my MP3 player loves me

Ok erratic post from work. Erratic because well I'm at work, I'm tired and my brain is essentially at "remember to breathe mode". I just didn't want to leave my blog at my early morning rant. I swear I'm not always as doubt filled and pissed off as I've shown so far. These things just seem to lump together. Snowball effect I guess.

Anywho, this was something I wanted to write about. I might be doing it a disservice by having it as a work post, but eh, it'll help distract my mind.

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After that long intro, I swear there's a connection with the post. Now usually whenever I feel down, my mp3 player seems to realize it and actually plays music appropriate to the situation. Sometimes it takes a song or two for it to judge my mood, but once it's figured it out, it plays a long string of songs that help me out. This morning it was on the ball right away. After worrying (for mostly no good reason) the first song that cam on was Ain't Nothing Wrong With That by Robert Randolph. Specifically by the end where the song goes:


Ain't nothin' wrong with that

It don't matter
It don't matter
(Let it go)
It don't matter
(Let it go)
It don't matter
(Let it go)
It don't matter
(Let it go)

I would link to youtube, but work oh so graciously blocks it. Maybe when I get home.
After that it strung together some upbeat songs to try to lift my spirits. Now I have no special playlist. I just load up my MP3s and the thing is on random. Oh and in the middle of all that upbeat music, what does it play? Lean On Me. Now that's friendship!

This isn't the first case of it playing what I need to hear either. When I'm in absolutely no mood for upbeat, it'll stick with the sadder songs I have. Oh and it eerily plays Eye of the Tiger whenever I need to get pumped up.  

Anyone else find this happens to them or is it another check in the long list of Bo Bo is crazy list?